There is no worse feeling….
You have been on a good run, you vowed to never go back to your old ways. You have seen progress, you seem to be genuinely in control when suddenly…
You return to the comfortable yet suffocating grip of your bad habits. The old you re-emerges with a vengeance, only to bring the shame and guilt of failure directly to the surface of your conscience.
The reasons behind why are always difficult to pinpoint however, in the moment before the relapse you somehow justify the action into seeming perfectly reasonable.
Despite ALL THE PRIOR PAIN. ALL OF THE VOWES TO STOP. In this one moment… you fall victim to desire and it proceeds to consume you.
The key is to never forgot the depths of the void into which you fall. There is no ‘just this little piece’ and I’m back to being good. It’s all or nothing.
Do you really want to change who you are on a fundamental level? Are you really willing to sacrifice all the comfort that secretly masquerades your darkness. Or are you okay with being a slave to your limbic system.
That is a decision we all have to make, be it consciously… or as with most, unconsciously decline into mediocrity.
Rise above your animalistic nature and experience freedom like no other.
I wish you nothing but the best in your journey
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